Not obsessing

I was talking to my sister the other day, (the one that is due 10 days before me, not the one that is in labor as I type this) and we were talking how different we are when pregnant with #2 (actually #3 for her).

When pregnant with Julia, I was completely obsessed and focused on the pregnancy. Not a second went by that I was not thinking about it; would this be a viable pregnancy, what am I to expect next, what is labor like, what is going on in there, etc.. I would constantly pour over my baby development books and websites, I was constantly researching baby and pregnancy stuff.

This time, not so much. AND if I am actually feeling good, I might actually - gasp - forget I am pregnant!!! That is right!! I am so busy with Julia and stuff, that without the constant morning sickness reminder, I will occasionally forget about being pregnant!

Sure I still have a lot of the same fears and concerns, (after going through multiple miscarriages, I will always have that fear) but I am not obsessing over things. I don't pour over the development books every night. I still look at them, but mainly just when I enter a new week. I still know roughly how big the baby is (it is a lemon this week) and what it is up to. I am just not letting my life revolve around it this time.

This does not mean that this baby is any less wanted or loved, it just means that I am learning not to be an obsessive, over-protective mom.